Lyrics are my thoughts someone else is singing......

Today I woke up and was extremely anxious.  If you ask me about what, I wish I could tell you.  As we get closer to the day that changed our lives forever, the sadder I become.  So what do I do?  Block the world out with headphones and music.  No, not my funky running music, but my what I refere to as my "sad" music.  It reminds me how far we have come as a family without the one I miss the most. 

Some of the music that got me through those first couple of days were:
Storm, Lifehouse
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5KiD-QXyuQM
I Can Only Imagine, MercyMe
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9La_4svq8JI

I don't really like John Mayer, but his song titled Heartbrake Warfare helped me as well.  Different reason why he is singing it but still felt like we were going through Heartbrake Warfare.  Except we had already lost the war.

Then later that summer Miley Cyrus played a leading role in "The Last Song".  The song When I Look at You is my ringtone when Kaitlan calls.  That song was wrote for her!  It's one of my all time favorites, but it doesn't belong to me, it's Kaitlan's song to her Daddy.

Songs that pick me up these days are:

Tiny Light, Grace Potter and the Nocturnals (The lyrics express what I can not.)

Prisoner of Hope, Ali Moss (Ellie's solo to Dave) I can cry everytime I watch her to do it.

Broken, by Lifehouse.

I'll Be Missing You, Puffy Daddy and Faith Evans (Ellie's personal favorite song to Dave)

I just wish I had the talent these singers/song writters have to express their feelings.  It's amazing how they can get into your head and truely take you back to a moment or get you through a moment.