Life without............

We all have flaws.  One of mine is simple: I think too much. In the shower today I came up with this: "Sara is made up of many parts.  All pieces to a very complex puzzle."  You take a piece away, I don't pick myself back up and just stroll on.  I honestly get really frazzled.  What is odd, is I'm just figuring this out.  I think because some things taken away from me now, at this point in life, are permanent.  Family members, friends, time, etc.

Surgery of all things has been one of the most eye opening experiences in what little time I call my 35 years of existence.  A large piece of me is the total realm of Wellness.  No I don't eat organic food, and yes I go to Burger King but Wellness is a total purspectivie in which I live.  Surgery/injury has taken that away.  Will I get better?  Depends on which day you ask me.  Yesterday: "WHY DID YOU LET THEM CUT ME". Today: "This is going to be a long road ahead."  Maybe, I'm just really being a big baby because I can no longer do things myself?  Knocked the shampoo off in the shower, can't pick it up, dang left the towel on the floor, let's see if I use my feet, I really want a fountain Coke, Oh yeah, can't drive.  The list goes on and on.  I wish I could say, this is just tempurary, but I now must live with many resistrictions.  One of those including, leaving my family at the number of four.  I would rather deciede that, not a neruosugreon.

I'm kinda laughing at myself for blogging my thoughts, but God didn't bless me with song writting ability. 

Any who,

Sara